Sleeping

This week will be remembered for the hours I spent trying to sleep. I have no idea what set it off but starting Monday, I found I couldn't get my mind to settle down, got only 4 hrs Monday, and 3 hrs Tuesday. I spent all Wednesday night awake, making the next day very tense. I asked my doc if it had something to do with the sedative I'd been on; but in the end I figured it was just self-perpetuating. I couldn't sleep cos I hadn't been able to sleep in the hours before that. But even that explanation doesn't make sense cos I've never had insomnia so bad. On Wednesday, though I tried reading and watching a movie, I started to panic, and by dawn, I was felt I was going out of my head. On Thursday though, I delved deeper into the book I was reading about women in the Bible (Tamar, Hagar). I focused God's faithfulness, and how I knew that because of that I would get through it. I finally dosed off around 3pm, and I woke up more excited than I ever remember being! I couldn't spoke praising God for the blessing of sleep. On Friday night, I was able to get about 6 hrs, and last night was good as well. I just thank God for the lessons I learned from it all though. That no matter how dark it gets, the moment will pass and you will be able have it all behind you. You can't allow yourself to get so overwhelmed with the pain that you are going through that you forget that.

I thank God for this beautiful weekend!!